On Nov. 28th, 2010 as I was driving back up to school from Utah, I hit black ice on the freeway going 40 mph. My car fishtailed and hit the back of a truck on my passenger side. Boyh my passenger and I were fine, bit it totaled the car, and ledt a sort of scar on my heart. Ever since, I have been afraid to drive on snowy roads...well, any roads for that matter. I do not let it interfear with my day to day life, but I am still kind of scared. I started having nightmares about the wreck again last night...and it snowed the following morning. The roads looked a lot like te day of my crash, and the drive to work was a little more tense than usual. People will ask me what they can do to help...but what can I tell them? All they can really do is hug me, and then try to distract my brain... But it never lasts for long. I think a big part of me has changed in an irreversible way. I feel different...like my personality was effected more than my body. Please tell me that this feeling will pass someday... I want to feel truly safe again. I don't want to be afraid to go to sleep for the fear of what I'll see in my dreams.
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Confession #18
On Nov. 28th, 2010 as I was driving back up to school from Utah, I hit black ice on the freeway going 40 mph. My car fishtailed and hit the back of a truck on my passenger side. Boyh my passenger and I were fine, bit it totaled the car, and ledt a sort of scar on my heart. Ever since, I have been afraid to drive on snowy roads...well, any roads for that matter. I do not let it interfear with my day to day life, but I am still kind of scared. I started having nightmares about the wreck again last night...and it snowed the following morning. The roads looked a lot like te day of my crash, and the drive to work was a little more tense than usual. People will ask me what they can do to help...but what can I tell them? All they can really do is hug me, and then try to distract my brain... But it never lasts for long. I think a big part of me has changed in an irreversible way. I feel different...like my personality was effected more than my body. Please tell me that this feeling will pass someday... I want to feel truly safe again. I don't want to be afraid to go to sleep for the fear of what I'll see in my dreams.
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